I don’t talk about it. I try not to think about it. I’ve spent years perfecting the art of hiding it . . . even from myself. During the “happy” times, it lurks like a specter. During “dark” times, it obscures everything else. I never look it in the eye! I only write about it in code . . .
64 65 70 72 65 73 73 69 6f 6e
100 101 112 114 101 115 115 105 111 110
-.. . .–. .-. . … … .. — -.
I’m fine.
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July 26, 2018 at 7:25 pm
Sparkyjen
Oh WOW, I must admit to being curious about your code, which I hope is something like coordinates, maybe to a place where you’ll feel more comfortable getting to the crux of whatever it is that’s too numerical to express any other way. Highest and Best!
July 27, 2018 at 2:28 am
Miss Demure Restraint
It is simply part of being bipolar. Even though I intellectually understand there is an up for every down, it still “feels” like the down is forever. I struggle to express anything about how it feels . . . therefore, the code is simply for depression, including the statement . . . I’m fine. Something depression sufferers (I believe) share with one another.
I’m lucky to be in the best of all possible places to deal with this. I have a wonderful life and partner. I know this, but in the down times, it’s hard to focus on just how great everything really is. I am better equipped to deal than in the past since now I recognize the ups and downs more easily than I used to.
Thanks for your concern, but . . . I’m fine. 😉
July 27, 2018 at 2:44 pm
Sparkyjen
Represent! You got this.
July 28, 2018 at 6:53 am
prenin
Hi sweetie!!! 🙂 ❤
You're not the only friend with bipolar I've had so I do understand how you feel!!! 🙂 ❤
Love and huge squishy hugs sweetheart!!! 🙂 ❤
Prenin.